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Topic: When did you know?
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I knew I was different since about 10 or so, I guess when puberty started to kick in.
Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life; define yourself. ~Harvey Fierstein
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Post: #79826  , Sun 15 Apr 07, 10:03PM |
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Well when I was really little the only reason I watched Barney was for this girl on there named Kathy. And when I played with Barbies I had the two girls married and made Ken watch. But I never really thought about it then. It was when I was 10 and hit puberty that I was like, "Girls girls girls!" and when I figured out I was a lesbian. But I thought it would go away. So when I was in 6th grade with a crush on this girl I figured I was "stuck" and went into denial. Which didn't last too long, I came out to everyone at 13.
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Post: #79853 , Sun 15 Apr 07, 11:46PM |
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:: Shaun
:: QA9 Grand Elder | |
Hey
I spose i always sorta knew ... but i didn't if that makes any sense. I mean, for the longest time i was in denial over it, saying i was going thru a phase ... but then i realised that i was lying ... not only to myself, but to my girlfriend. That was about half a year ago now ... and i have since broken up with her and am happy ... yaya ... lol
catya l8r ... Shaun
"I think love is just a made-up emotion to cover the fact that we are biologically drawn to a staggering degree to viable genetic donors" - My Best Friend the Russian
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Post: #79926 , Mon 16 Apr 07, 11:20AM |
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Yeah, I realized that I had feelings for guys about the time I was nine I suppose. My dear sweet lesbian Nana says she knew that I would be probably before that. My mom likes to joke around that it's my Dad's fault...but anyway. I didn't begin to act on my feelings for other men until I was about fourteen, I dated girls to try and try to get rid of it, but I never could. Finally, I just came out of the closet last year...I was sixteen.
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Post: #80343 , Thu 19 Apr 07, 8:02PM |
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:: AxAROFFLE
:: QA4 A spot of tea please, Alfred! | |
I didn't realize that I was until a few years ago. But as I look back on my childhood years, I realize that I had far more encounters with girls in attraction than I did with boys. So in the end my body and mind have known since forever ago.
I was just a little slow on picking up. XD
February 27, 2007 - A new chapter of my life.
Always and forever searching for knowledge.
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Post: #80362 , Thu 19 Apr 07, 10:34PM |
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ive always known but i was always told that it was wrong so i just ignored my feelings 4 the same sex but when i was 14 about to turn 15 i tyold my mom i cant deny it anymore and i came out to her.
she ignores the fact im gay and is in denial but whatever im happy : )
so what u mean to tell me, is that i can be myself and ull heart me anyways??? wow. happy feelings.
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Post: #80364 , Thu 19 Apr 07, 10:36PM |
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it seems weird to me but i guess i kind of always knew that there was something like that going on, but i didnt really come to terms with it until i was 10 and i liked my best friend.
...and it didn't take them long to decide-
that earl had to DIE!!!!!!
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Post: #80369 , Thu 19 Apr 07, 11:17PM |
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I don't. I'm starting to realise my sexuality though. I'm beginning to think that I may be gay or bisexual.
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Post: #80607 , Sun 22 Apr 07, 3:38AM |
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i guess i sorta always knew. i never knew what ppl meant by a "hot guy" (i still sorta dont =P), and i remember thinking "i wish i was a guy so i could date her.
but i reallyrealizedlast spring.
please don't burry me down in the cold cold ground
i'd rather have you cut me up and pass me all around
throw my brain in a hurricane and the blind can have my eyes
the deaf can have both my ears if they don't mind the sighs.
~a song
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Post: #80611 , Sun 22 Apr 07, 3:47AM |
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when i was like 8 and i would call boys cute and try to put my mothers make up on.....i was a strange little kid
"If there's a killer in me, there's a killer in you."
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Post: #80619 , Sun 22 Apr 07, 5:44AM |
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Calling boys cute is another symptom for me that suggests homosexuality or bisexuality. I'm pretty much sure I'm not straight.
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Post: #80620 , Sun 22 Apr 07, 5:49AM |
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I know now. I suppose since about 12 or so when I started staring at men.
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Post: #80641 , Sun 22 Apr 07, 2:02PM |
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i discovered what a lesbian was in about 7th grade
i knew then that i wasn't completely abnormal. i've always had little crushes on my girl friends lol.
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Post: #80644 , Sun 22 Apr 07, 2:18PM |
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:: Enigma
:: QA10 Community God | |
Looking back, I remember I knew I was different when I was six. As far as I remember really.
“Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.”
“Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.”
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Post: #80647 , Sun 22 Apr 07, 2:39PM |
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I found out I was bisexual almost 3 years ago. What i mean is, i stopped ignoring it. well, i call it being bisexual, but sometimes i feel more like a lesbian. It really hit me when i started to like my friend, or acknowledge it. also hit me when my x best friend said she thought i was lesbian. i guess it was that obvious.
Call the police! I\\\'m being arrested by the police! (Reno 911)
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Post: #81160 , Fri 27 Apr 07, 12:51AM |
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I have always known that I didn't like girls, but I didn't know I was gay till about 9 years of age.
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Post: #81456 , Sun 29 Apr 07, 7:04PM |
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I've definitly always had feelings for girls. I mean, I can think back to when I was very young, to certain incidences, and I've been pretty much wanted sexual things with girls all my life. I basically denied it for the first 10-11 years of my life. I can pin-point the exact day I started to actually realize I like girls, though. The last week of June, 2004. At my brother's birthday party. Some people were playing video games, but Kelsey, Ricci, and Katy were getting bored with it, so they came into my room. We were gonna play with my kareoke machine, but it wasn't working. So we started looking through my Tiger Beats, Girls Life's, and Bop!s. We were all laying on my bed, and Katy was laying next to me...looking absolutely GORGEOUS with her new hair-cut, wearing a t-shirt and jeans, her hair still wet from swimming, and smelling like chlorine. I remember it exactly. We were talking about Billy Martin, Good Charlotte, Kelsey asked me if I liked Simple Plan, and then Katy put her arm across mine to point out to me one of the pictures in the magazine I was holding. I can't even remember what she was saying. It was like, I was so intranced with her...I know I said something back to it, but I was barely aware of what anyone was saying or what I was saying back. I didn't care. All I knew in that moment was that I wanted to kiss Katy. For the first time in my whole life I wanted someone, for the first time I was aroused... I'll be honest, it scared me. I never had those feelings for anyone before that, much less a girl. I kept telling myself "I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I like Trevor, he's a guy. I'm not gay." I don't even remember what happened in that last hour before they left. But when they did, I layed down on my bed...and I just thought "I can't be a lesbian?"
I denied it for a month. I told myself that I hated Katy. I told myself I was not a g*ddam lesbian.
Then I realized, I couldn't deny the fact that I liked her. I realized it wasn't just her, it was most girls. They were just so pretty to me, hypnotizing. I also realized if another person was gay, I would have accepted them instantly...so why shouldn't I accept myself?
Then for about two-three months, I went through a period of trying to decide what my sexuality was. All I can say now is, thank Buddha for the internet. I talked to some internet friends about my feelings. Eventually I deduced that I am bisexual.
About eight months later, I told my best friend.
Sense then, I've been slowly coming out to everyone. Three years later, here I am. My brother and almost all my friends know now. My parents do not...if they were more open-minded, however, I would have told them.
I'm pretty much loud and proud by now. If anyone asks me, I will tell them. I don't deny it anymore.
Yep. So that's the very long story of my queer-fullness. <3
I'm defying gravity, and you can't pull me down.
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Post: #81466 , Sun 29 Apr 07, 8:41PM |
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Does it count if you deneyed it? If so, then since i was..... well, since i can remember... and if it doesn't count then since the halloween dance at my school this year.
and the long summer nights will never end.
not here anyway...
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Post: #81479 , Sun 29 Apr 07, 9:59PM |
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I figured out i was Bi in Grade 7. Thats when i met Nikki, the first girl Id ever had a crush on. But i denied it until a year ago when I met Trish, then there was no point in denying it i knew it was true. And it wasn't until just recently that I've figured out that i feel no physical attraction to men.
All you need is just a little patience.
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Post: #81484 , Sun 29 Apr 07, 10:16PM |
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February 8th 2006. That is the specific date I realised I liked girls. I remember because this is the day I started my journal. I just had to write down what I was feeling, and try to make sense of everything. It was such a shock, as I had never thought about girls in that way before.
I had watched a clip of a movie that happened to show two women kissing, and that was it. It was like a spark went off and I watched the clip over and over again, thinking why do I like it so much. This then resulted in a freak out, and serious denial for a while.
I did the research and eventually began to accept it. I came out to my friend who is bi a couple of months later saying I think I might be gay, or at least like girls. My sister was next, then a few of my other firends. Luckily they all support me, and love me no matter what.
Since then, I look back on things and think this is why I would seem more connected to this girl than that guy, whether it be in a movie, or real life. If that makes sense. I just never recognised it for what it was back then.
So now, I know I like girls, I'm just trying to figure out whether I like guys or not. Everything so far suggests no.
Me (jokingly): Don't drive in the lake.
Mum: Why?
Me: ... Did you seriously just ask me that?
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Post: #81567 , Mon 30 Apr 07, 5:11PM |
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