:: Owlgirl
:: QA4 A spot of tea please, Alfred! | |
Recently, I've been thinking about dying. A lot. I don't want to kill myself, myself. But I keep thinking that if I accidently... I don't know... fell off a bridge and died, I'd be perfectly content with that.
For 3 years I've been dealing with my familys shit. I've been either ignored or cussed at. I feel like I can do nothing right. Like I am a failure and a dissapointment like many people say I am.
I ajust joined QA and I'm still figuring out how everything works. But I haven't been able to stop crying... for a really, really long time. I just want to be happy again. I want to stop ruining everything. I just don't know any other way to do that but dissapear off the face of the earth.
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Post: #642737  , Tue 24 Apr 12, 12:42AM |
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Welcome to QA and let me start by saying that it does get better. I've been where you're at now, and so have lots of other people here, you're among friends who you can talk to now. 
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Post: #642741 , Tue 24 Apr 12, 12:46AM |
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I do that too. I don't think its because you want to die, just that youre curious. It usually is just a phase. It will get better. If it doesn't feel free to talk to me.
Also welcome to QA!
"Shall I abide in this dull world, which in her absence is no better then a sty?" -Lost and Delirious
"I didn't eat for three days because I wanted to be lovely." -Cassie Ainsworth (Skins)
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Post: #642769 , Tue 24 Apr 12, 1:57AM |
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honestly, i don't see the point in thinking about death.
i really try not to dwell on such things, because there are so many other things to think about. I try not to stay angry at people, and try not to stay down.
I know what it feels like to not feel good enough, but do me a favor, remmeber that every life is meaningful. if you ever need someone to talk to, about anything, let me know. i usually check this site frequently, so just hit me up
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So,If you care to find me; look to the Western sky. As someone told me lately, everyone deserves the chance to fly
don't let my supposed "confidence" fool you, I'm still just a scared little kid. that doesn't mean I won't keep fighting.
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Edit: CrazyDramaKid, Tue 24 Apr 12, 2:02AM
Post: #642771 , Tue 24 Apr 12, 2:02AM |
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:: Prakaash
:: QA4 A spot of tea please, Alfred! | |
I used to do that.
i used to pray to god to kill me.
everything will be perfect if i died.
I dont have to worry about anything then.
My family will cry for a day and will get back to normal from the next day
but then wen i think about people who really love me.
They will never get over it
Why are people more happy to see two men holding guns against each other than when they are holding hands togethor ??
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Post: #642877 , Tue 24 Apr 12, 10:32AM |
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:: Xeffy
:: QA9 Grand Elder | |
Ive been caught up in those thoughts before. What you need is some new music and a good tv show to distract yourself.
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Post: #642883 , Tue 24 Apr 12, 11:23AM |
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:: Dom4
:: QA2 Settling in | |
hey hun. I've been where you are at multiple times, it sucks. But let me tell you it does get better. Just gotta holding on and staying strong. I feel like you should tell someone(mom dad friend any family) soon so they can help you. I just told my mom about feeling like you are feeling and I got help and I feel better. It does get better keep believeing that, because it will. If you ever wanna talk message me, I'll be here for you. Stay strong.
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Post: #642933 , Tue 24 Apr 12, 6:39PM |
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i get them... not fun really.
ok, there is a bit of a terminology problem, in theory, technically it's not suicidal, but it's damn close it might as well be. and the effects are just as bad.
you need a good friend, and someone to help you.
i'm here in my corner if you want a chat.
it will be alright in the end, and if it's not alright, it's not the end yet.
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Post: #642946 , Tue 24 Apr 12, 7:26PM |
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I understand I still get a visit from those kinds of thoughts their was even a time were I wanted to kill myself but I know your probably tired of hearing this but it really does get better for every rainbow theirs a pot of gold ( yea I know random but in my mind that made sense lol )
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Post: #643041 , Wed 25 Apr 12, 12:34AM |
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I've been there before, and honestly it only gets worse before it gets better, but it does get better! I felt like I couldn't go on anymore, like nothing I did was good enough and no matter what I did I would feel like that for the rest of my life. It eventually faded, and once it does it feels so good! Just hold on, they key is to keep your mind busy; read or watch tv, listen to music or draw, anything you like to do. It will fade away eventually
“It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.” ― Khalil Gibran
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Post: #643052 , Wed 25 Apr 12, 12:52AM |
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That one life-long scar...
Three's A Crowd... or is it?
Lily Helena Knight
Things that grow
Just so.
My new life
Trip to the zoo!
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