i see...
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Post: #590651  , Sun 25 Dec 11, 10:15PM |
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:: ZeroHead
:: QA5 Having the neighbours round | |
I think the first time I asked myself "Am I a lesbian?" was this one night. I was actually showering, which is where I do my thinking sometimes, and I was thinking about the feelings I had to a girl. I was like "Am I bi? I mean, look at how you look at her, Hannah. There's something there. It's not just casual. You feel something for a girl." But I remember for a split second thinking this: "What if I'm a lesbian? Oh no no no no no that's not it there is no way in hell I am gay. See, 'cause I like guys...he's cute, right?"
Yeah, I'm my own therapist. If you would've told me a year ago that I was gay I would've slapped you.
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars...The stars are always there but we miss them in the dirt and clouds. We miss them in the storms. Tell them to remember hope. We have hope." -Renee Yohe
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Post: #590660 , Sun 25 Dec 11, 10:41PM |
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:: Zolin
:: QA6 Livin' it up! | |
It took me forever to stop denying it.
I realized I was into boys too when I was 13. But I didn't really come to terms with it until I was like... 17 or something.
I was waiting it out, I'd read that it was a phase most people go through, and I was holding out for that to be the case.
When I was 17 I finally met the guy who would be my bf later on. And I remembered I never really like to label people on so I wasn't going to label myself. I decided: so I like both genders, that's alright. It only means I got more options.
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Post: #590676 , Sun 25 Dec 11, 11:55PM |
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hmmm i see
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Post: #590970 , Mon 26 Dec 11, 9:01PM |
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I was pretty scared, I had all these feelings that I didn't know how to handle, I felt like a freak, like the fact I like girls is something to be ashamed of :/
It took me a while to get used to the idea but I finally managed to accept myself, I'm still pretty scared but not of myself, of how people will react, how they will treat me in life...
Those who hold onto the past never see the future <3
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Post: #591074 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 12:37AM |
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I kinda had an epiphany type moment - like 'oh yeahhhh...that makes sense now  ' but other than that I wasn't bothered. I guess deep down some part of me already knew anyway 
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Post: #591081 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 12:48AM |
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:: XlobX
:: QA8 High Householder | |
Relieving. It was like: so that's why I've never had a girlfriend....
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Post: #591098 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 1:01AM |
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lol i see
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Post: #591311 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 5:17AM |
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:: robotz21
:: QA7 Taking responsibility | |
I never really had that questioning stage -- instead, I just went into denial. And when I wasn't in denial, I thought that I would just keep it to myself and marry a woman and have kids and carry my being gay as a secret to the grave. Mostly because I fell victim to my school's and rabbis' propaganda that basically said that homosexuality was a sin and people who are unfortunate enough to be gay should keep it a secret forever and then suffer it as their punishment.
Needless to say, I hate that school and it didn't really work out that way....
"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference"
--Robert Frost, "The Road Not Taken"
"All art is quite useless"
--Oscar Wilde
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Post: #591317 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 5:22AM |
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"I'm bi. Oh, well, DUH. I'm stupid. I can't believe I didn't figure this out five years ago. *Gasp* Ohmygosh. SEVEN." xD I was playing Sudoku...
The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong in the broken places. But those that will not break it kills. It kills the very good and the very gentle and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these you can be sure it will kill you too but there will be no special hurry. -Ernest Hemingway
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Post: #591443 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 9:13AM |
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:: Twillz
:: QA10 Community God | |
For my sexuality, I was upset for a while, then I was like "Okay, this closet stinks. Time to come out now." XD
For my gender: Well, I dunno. I'm not upset about it, I just want to know WHY I'm this way, you know? But, this closet smells better than the sexuality closet. I think I'll stay here for a while >.<
"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times...if one only remembers to turn on the lights" ~Albus Dumbledore |
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Post: #591454 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 9:30AM |
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yeah i know what you mean by that. very well put
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Post: #591543 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 5:14PM |
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For me, it was mainly just shock and then trying to figure out who I was.
"Don't give in to everything the world around tells you to be
Open up your mind release yourself
Stop the lying stop comparing who you are to what you see
Never letting fear hold back the change"- 'Beyond The Surface' Kutless
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Post: #591549 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 5:30PM |
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well it wasn't really a shock for me, but i do get what you mean about trying too figur out who you are.
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Post: #591561 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 5:38PM |
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I didn't really care at first. I thought that everyone was like me but boy was I wrong. 
When I figured out that it wasn't exactly 'normal' to everyone else, I started freaking out but I'm slowly coming to terms with it. I still haven't really managed to fully accept myself, but I'm getting there ;)
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Edit: Venemous, Tue 27 Dec 11, 5:50PM
Post: #591572 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 5:49PM |
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:: Its_true
:: QA4 A spot of tea please, Alfred! | |
I hated myself but now im over so its ok.
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Post: #591582 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 6:22PM |
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@Amy: Alfred Kinsey did say that everyone is to some extent bisexual...
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Post: #591589 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 6:54PM |
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i think what happened to me was i was happy at first then upset and happy again but i don't know why 
'Impossible is a word to be found only in the dictionary of fools'
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Post: #591594 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 7:06PM |
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When I was like, 13, I thought "Okay- I'm just going through a bi phase. Think straight, and this will all just clear up." I tried- and failed. Thanks to reading yaoi fanfiction, all my qualms about the idea sort of... fell away. And then I met my boyfriend- and that sealed it for me. All I thought was, "Okay, I'm bi. I'm happier than I ever was when I thought I was straight, so why is this a problem now?"
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Post: #591599 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 7:21PM |
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thanks for the responses
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Post: #591954 , Tue 27 Dec 11, 11:32PM |
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That one life-long scar...
Three's A Crowd... or is it?
Lily Helena Knight
Things that grow
Just so.
My new life
Trip to the zoo!
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