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Dear ____,
I know you don't like me saying it because it embarrasses you, but I love you very, very much. I know you do love me, as well, but here's where the problem lies:
I know you've got college exams and you're a busy guy, but we really, really need to see each other more often. In a few weeks we'll be spending four months apart and I honestly don't know how I'm going to cope with that. I want to spend every minute possible with you up till then.
I hope that's doable
H x
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Post: #652836  , Wed 30 May 12, 7:00PM |
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Dear ____,
I'm writing this to you because you just don't seem to understand. And I really need you to.
I can't be around you when you cut. I can't.
Not because I love you (though I do), not because it hurts me to see you hurt (though it does), but because when I am around someone who is cutting regularly, it makes me want to cut.
Every second of every day, I want to cut. I don't remember the last time I didn't want to hurt myself in any way.
But seeing you with fresh cuts on your arms, hearing about the fact that yet another version of my self-harm has inched its way into your life... That makes me want to go get out my blade and feel it too.
I really didn't want it to come to this. But today in English, I was sitting there, literally on the brink of tears. My hands were shaking, I couldn't quit moving, I kept flexing my fingers and wringing my pencil like it was a neck I was strangling...
Every time I think about you cutting, the idea of cutting, the fact that I can't cut... I start freaking out. I almost had a panic attack today, in my mom's friend's house of all places. In Choir I was scraping my side with my fingers because I needed to do something to help myself.
But I can't. I can't do it. I can't self harm. It's in my god damn fucking safety contract. And I would disappoint so many people if I did..
The sense of loneliness... being lost... fear... every bad emotion related to depression, all of them... That is what I feel right now. That is how I feel because I can't self-harm.
And I'm not trying to give you a guilt trip or some ultimatum or anything. And I wish I didn't have to say this but..
I think you need to choose. Tell me, do you feel how I described when you don't cut? Do you? Because if you do, by all means, tell me. I might actually understand in that case. But if you just do it because you like the blood, you like the pain, whatever... Then you need to figure out if you would rather see blood every night or be in a relationship with me.
I feel like a huge bitch right now.
But I'm honestly doing this for me. I can't handle being around your self-harm right now.
I am so sorry. :/
I do love you.
~Autumn.
"It's not about who you are attracted to ultimately, it's about who you fall in love with." ~ Holly Holiday, Glee
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." ~ Moulin Rouge
"When you can't run, you crawl. And when you can't crawl, you find someone to carry you." ~ Firefly
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Post: #653005 , Thu 31 May 12, 3:28AM |
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:: OMGAPenny
:: QA4 A spot of tea please, Alfred! | |
Dear _____,
I'm still surprised you even want to hang out with me, you calling last night actually was a nice surprise. My parents adore you which is something I haven't seen since my last ex but they want to have you over to supper and want you to come over all the time. Maybe it's because they see me happy and getting better well on the outside. You held me in your arms last night and it felt amazing because I felt so safe especially when you held my hands because they were cold. I have a crush you, I think you're brilliant but I'm scared to fuck this up. It's so easy talking to you and you listen to everything I babble about and even laugh at my stupidest jokes. I'm not falling you for it's way too early for that but if things keep going like this maybe I will a few months down the line.
I'm not sure what's going on with you and your ex but I'm not going to question you on it, I'm just going to wait and see what happens. If I'm right in thinking you like me then you'll come around which I really hope you do.
-The girl with the large collection of horror movies
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Post: #653515 , Sat 2 Jun 12, 3:18PM |
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Dear____,
You're right here.
I'm going to kiss you now. 
Love, Kails
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Post: #653535 , Sat 2 Jun 12, 5:17PM |
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Dear___,
Eee! Kisses! <3
This is the greatest weekend of my life.
Love, Sammo
When we lose the right to be different, we lose the privilege to be free.
-Charles Evans Hughes
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Post: #653536 , Sat 2 Jun 12, 5:20PM |
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Dear_,_, and_,
OMG Y'ALL ARE SO FLUFFY CAN I PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HUG YOU?! 
Love ya,
Hannah
To see us dance is to hear our hearts speak- Hopi Indian saying
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Post: #653556 , Sat 2 Jun 12, 7:08PM |
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Dear ____,
You always ask me why I'm in such a worse mood coming home from a friend's house than when I'm on the way to a friend's house. You ask me if something happened, if I really think it's worth it if I'm always going to feel crappy afterwards, if I'm thinking this through.
You just don't understand that my differing moods have nothing to do with what happened at my friends' houses... They have to do with the fact that leaving means I have to go to your house, to your disappointment, to your worry. It means I have to be around you. And them. And everyone else who doesn't understand. Not that my friends understand, because they don't. No one does. But at least with them I can forget for a little while. I'm not getting hassled to explain my feelings or do homework or be anything but the way I want to be.
So please just shut the fuck up, leave me alone, and get the hell out of my life.
~Your kid.
Dear ____, ____, ____, and ____,
I wish I had done it yesterday. I wish I had ran away from everyone. Ran the nine blocks.
You should be glad I didn't do it today. I was two blocks from it for 7 hours. I resisted the urge several times.
Resisting is exhausting.
I love you all. You're amazing.
~Autumn
"It's not about who you are attracted to ultimately, it's about who you fall in love with." ~ Holly Holiday, Glee
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return." ~ Moulin Rouge
"When you can't run, you crawl. And when you can't crawl, you find someone to carry you." ~ Firefly
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Post: #653681 , Sun 3 Jun 12, 1:40AM |
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Dear ___ and ____,
Thank you for being so supportive. It is greatly appreciated.
Dear ___,
Things are harder than hell and the process is ultra lengthy but like you and I have both said on numerous occasions when things seem impossible, it will all be worth it. Our efforts will not go unrewarded. You and I have been snappy at each other lately due to all our stresses, however I know and you know that we are very much in love and these things that make us break bring us closer together. Every hug feels like home. Every kiss makes everything alright. We will be settled in before we know it. I love you ____. <3
Dear ____,
You are an awesome friend. Thank you for agreeing to be respectful of house rules.
Dear ___,
Thanks for being helpful and I'm glad we are friends.
Dear ___,
I hope your trip has been pure greatness.
"So paint it black and take it back. Let's shout out loud and clear." -"Welcome To The Black Parade" by My Chemical Romance
“Taking the first step with the good thought, the second with the good word, and the third with the good deed, I enter Paradise.”-Persian Proverb
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Post: #653950 , Mon 4 Jun 12, 8:46AM |
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Dear Husbands,
You two are my favorite people ever. (with the exception you two know about  )
We're going to Germany bitches!!
I love you guys.
When I get out of Idaho and get married, if I have sons I am fully naming them after you guys.
Yer my faves. :3
Love yew!!!
-Yer wife
The caged bird stands on a grave of dreams
His shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
Of things unknown, but longed for still
And his tune is heard on a distant hill
For the caged bird
Sings of freedom.
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Post: #654137 , Mon 4 Jun 12, 11:55PM |
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:: Owlgirl
:: QA4 A spot of tea please, Alfred! | |
Dear ________
They're the most important people, I love them. And I'm sorry. I can't even keep my promise to not hurt myself, and right now I'm listening to the voices in my head that I can't seem to block out anymore. They scream at me and the only way to keep them quiet is with super loud music... or cutting. I did both. I'm listening to music (extremely loud) and I cut, sorry. So what's the next thing to do. I can't get out of the darkness, I can't escape at all. I just want to run... into the street and get hit by a bus. So _______, why did YOU put me HERE.
What the hell is my purpose? It can't just be this. It can't be just a bunch of repeating. Wake up, go to school and then go back home maybe eat a bagel, then start all over. No. I Can't do that. Everyday of my life SUCKS and you don't get it do you? NOPE.
So. Screw you ____________
Bye.
-Destiny-
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Post: #654653 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 12:44AM |
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Dear ___,
This is who I am. I LIKE GIRLS! I like guys to, but that was never really up for debate. You guys seem to think that this is going to change, like this is just a phase that'll last for a month or so and peter out. You don't know that I found this out about myself months ago, I've been wondering about this for almost two years. I don't understand why you can't just accept this about me.
Molly
I Love You... All of You
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Post: #654670 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 3:35AM |
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Dear_____,
I have finally made it.... I will not let you down.
There's no diversity because we're burning in the melting pot.
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Post: #654687 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 5:16AM |
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Dear____
I have like you for a really long time and you're one of my best friends and you told me you liked me too. We had our first kiss on Monday and it was amazing. It was also my first kiss with a guy. And Tuesday was perfect <3 being able to cuddle and kiss you was just amazing. I really hope you figure out what you want because I know what I want and all it is is you. I love you.
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Post: #654709 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 6:42AM |
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Dear____ I know you had him first but i really don't care. He doesn't want you anymore and you can hold on to all the hope in the world but he will be mine. Goodbye
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Post: #654710 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 6:43AM |
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Dear____,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AffMoaU2oD8
I could start quoting lines here, but I'd just end up writing out the whole song. It's probably not the first time I've given you a link to this song, because I love it. But it's totally relevant. Just listen. ♥
Love, Kails
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Edit: LoveisLove, Thu 7 Jun 12, 2:32PM
Post: #654742 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 2:24PM |
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:: benjn
:: QA9 Grand Elder | |
Dear wife and husband,
Yay for our wierd 3-way marriage! And I am naming my fish after you two. (I'm not sure if I want kids when I'm older, but I do want fish. And seeing as I already have names for my future dogs, you'll have to be the fish. ).
Love, the trousers of the relationship.
"Be what you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." Dr Seuss
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Post: #654765 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 5:49PM |
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Dear Husband and Wife
I feel obligated to write this but then again these are like those marriage vows we meant to write..
Joining QA was awesome for me for a few reasons but meeting you 2 was the best. Husband, I am so glad we actually met in person and wife.. when we meet in person there shall be fabulousness and I'm naming my daughter after you for reasons you know.
Husband.. I AM IN THE TROUSERS THAT HAPPEN TO BE WET COS ITS CHUCKING IT DOWN
Love you guys!
I'm a Loiner, apparently...
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Post: #654781 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 8:00PM |
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Dear Husbands,
They're my trousers, bitches!
And right now I have a coupon that can get me a free goldfish.
But just one.
So which one of you should I name it after?
Love, your wife
The caged bird stands on a grave of dreams
His shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
His wings are clipped and his feet are tied
So he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings with a fearful trill
Of things unknown, but longed for still
And his tune is heard on a distant hill
For the caged bird
Sings of freedom.
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Post: #654795 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 8:38PM |
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Dear _____,
I'm trying to stay optimistic here, but this whole day has been unbearable. I miss you so much, and I don't know how I'm going to make it through this summer. :'(
Yours forever in longing,
Sam <3
When we lose the right to be different, we lose the privilege to be free.
-Charles Evans Hughes
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Post: #654828 , Thu 7 Jun 12, 11:34PM |
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Dear____,
I know sweetie. I miss you so much too, and we've only been apart for two whole days. This summer is going to be so hard. But we'll see one another soon. Probably a month from today, remember? And at the end of the day, what's important is that we have each other and that we'll be together soon, right? This is almost all over, babe. ♥ It'll go by more quickly than you think.
Love, Kails
P.S. I feel kind of weird that we're talking about this on the Dear____ thread. If you want to talk more on Skype, you know I'm always game.
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Edit: LoveisLove, Fri 8 Jun 12, 12:08PM
Post: #655004 , Fri 8 Jun 12, 12:07PM |
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