Blog Entry: Lost Chance

Lost Chance Needless to say I'm pretty bummed.



I haven't blogged in a little while, probably because I haven't had much to complain about. Which, I suppose is a good thing.

I've been going through this phase where I've just been really happy for no reason. I'm not generally like that. Not to say I'm pessimistic or anything, because I'm not, quite the contrary actually. My philosophy is to live every day like it's my last.

And I fucked that up today.

I was in Barnes and Noble with Laila at the Philosophy section(I bought Beyond Good and Evil by Nietzsche). This really cute gay guy is behind me and I'm like "Am I in your way? Sorry" And he just smiled and said "No, it's fine"

And then I walked away. A couple minutes later I'm just like what the fuck, I need to get his number.

He's fucking gone. Disappeared. I lost my chance and I also broke the one rule I live by.

I'm beating myself up about it, and it sucks. It's the end of Winter Break and everything is crashing down on me. I haven't been writing. I haven't been working out. I haven't debated very well. And I'm not happy.

But I mean, besides that, I had a decent day. I saw Benjamin Button, it was a better than I expected, but really long. I bought a couple grams of Dro. Hung out with Laila all day, and hung out with debate kids in the morning.

But yea, not happy. I need to start doing more.