Blog Entry: I'm So Tired of Crushes

I'm So Tired of Crushes Ugh. I just want to smack myself in the forehead all the time.
Crushes.
Currently, I have a crush on four people. Three of these I know in real life and one is on Tumblr. Three are boys.
*this would be a good place to add that I am super confused about my sexuality right now. I am.*
So, there's J.M., J., T. and R. I have only spoken to two of them.
It's so pathetic.
I'm fourteen.
SAGHSAIFDHSDA
I don't really know what my mind is doing. It's just going a million miles a minute and I'm trying to be all big and tough and mature but I can't stop how I feel. It just makes me so angry. I don't want to like anyone unless I am positive they like me back and do not have a significant other.
I have never spoken to T. Fun.
I have spoken to J.M. once. He flirted, but he may have just been secretly making fun of me because I had spread the rumor around school that I liked him.
R. has a girlfriend. She has to know I like her. Has to. It's so obvious.
and J.? Never spoken to him. Just stalk his tumblr 24/7

this is so stupid. all of these crushes are stupid. ugh
I wish I could just be dating someone or not crushing on anyone. Is that too much to ask?