Blog Entry: Coming Out

Coming Out I've been out to select people for quite some time. Now though I am taking the hardest step in my journey. I'm coming out to my parents. I was watching an LGBTQ movie yesterday called For The Bible Tells Me So. For those who haven't seen or heard of it, the movie is about gay people who came out to very religious family members. Some have parents who are ministers and clergy even. One story though broke me into tears.

A very religious woman's daughter wrote home from college to tell her mother she's a lesbian. The mother wrote back some very unkind things. These exact words have been said to me by my very religious mother on other topics. When I told her these things upset me she called me weak and immature. These words caused the beautiful, young, bright 29 year old lesbian to kill herself.

I cried for her untimely death. Life wasted by hatred. I cried for her mother's ignorance and guilt. Then I realized, as young as eleven I was strong. Strong enough to deal with the same hate from my mother. From this strength I drew courage.

I wrote my mother a letter explaining the movie, her toll she took on me and who I truly am. I also explained that I will no longer be bound by chains of fear, shackled by her hate. I turn eighteen on the seventh. I'll be telling my father on the way back from the post office on the eighth. Closet doors hide fear and death.

I reccommend this movie. Highly.