Blog Entry: Self Image Issues among other things

Self Image Issues among other things So today.. just ugh. I don't even know where to begin. I think I'm a happy person so I'm going to keep the sad stuff to a minimum.

So basically I think I'm fat when I'm really not. I'm not the skinniest person in the world, but I'm not chubby either. My doctor and parents keep telling me I have a weird body type, but I've grown up exclusively around the skinny, stick types. Also, I've been brought up in a very athletic environment, and I've never been interested in athletics until recently. Recently I've been trying to train for Cross Country, and it's just been really hard. I know I can do it, and I can't do as well as everyone else can because they have been doing it for a while and this is my first season. I just wish that there was a sport I could just fall into. Sighs. Gonna start dieting like crazy again tomorrow to get my body fat % down to 10% or lower. So basically torture starts tomorrow. C'est le vie.

Anyway, enough with that crap. In other news, I've been doing some stuff with a group of people who don't have any clue that I'm gay. I thought that doing this would be fine with them not knowing, but it's ended up really hurting. I feel like I can't express myself correctly around anyone. They just ask me if I'm a theatre kid, and I say that "I am, but it's definitely not my favorite thing", because it isn't. In reality, I'm just a super stereotypical gay. What can a queer do?

Might meet up with some friends tomorrow. I can only hope.

Needs some friends who I can be myself around!!!

**EDIT**
Oh, and I can't post any of my photography onto this site because the res (and consequentially, file size) is too high. Le sigh...
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Thanks for listening to my rant!
XOXO
Until we meet again, Harrison Bingham