Blog Entry: Life, The Island and everything in it.

Life, The Island and everything in it. Hello guys it's Karl, My second blog of all my QA life. I'm sorta the really hidden and unknown type around here, i've posted alot but never really settles in one gang. Which I sorta enjoy. You know Life is kinda boring when it's without action, Holidays spent doing nothing drag on and make you wish that you were back in the torment of school whilst racking your brains for some sorta light to click. Me, my life is forever with action, I just love my imagination and would love to just get paid to think, so far my imagination expands from ideas of human chess to Stories about a girl called Ariel who becomes something of a deep emotional character for me. Anyways my true reasons for blogging is, Recently i've been bothered by that guy I like. Still can't engage the conversation, it's like a barrier blocks me from doing anything. I mean I wanna at least try but I can't, I feel so stupid alot. I can't concentrate, my mind doesn't want to help me and all I ever do is Imagine that story that I'l never finish, I'm too much of a perfectionist, I can't really do anything wrong, if I do i'l get so upset and try to fix it. I'm so caught up, and I feel nobody is caring about me anymore, my friends are becoming mere shadows and I'm ceasing to exist. II'm not suicidal or depressed, I don't feel depressed, just emotional like there's nothing for me in this world. Which I doubt there is, today I made brownies and then bored myself with technology. Couldn't find the valuable possession I once had Either, It sucks but I guess when you lose itm you well...I'm not sure what should go next. I just feel like I neep help crawling out of these holes and pit traps, am I expected to thrive on meaningless imagination forever. What do I do with life anyways?