Blog Entry: Why is it so hard to not be awkward?

Why is it so hard to not be awkward? So I had my first job interview this year today. I thought I was completely prepared, but then the interviewer came out. I'm awkward around pretty much everyone, but I usually feel more comfortable around women and the interviewer was a man. I don't really like when things change without notice either and I'd been told I would probably be interviewed by someone named Emily, so I was already a little flustered by then. I still had my two secret weapons though. Smile and maintain eye contact. Too bad the first thing he said when he sat down was, "I'm going to be taking notes, so if I'm not looking at you, don't thinking I'm not listening."

The whole interview was just awkward and nerve wracking and blahh!!! At the end when he asked me if I had any questions, I couldn't even remember any of the questions I had thought up. I had decided to ask at least two questions and god dammit I was going to stick to that, but after I asked the first thing to pop into my head (What hours would you want me to work?) I said "Okay, and I have one more question" But the problem was, I didn't have one more question! So it took me 7 awkward seconds of alternating between 'umming' and dramatic Snape-like pauses before I finally thought of something and just blurted out "How many people are there usually working here at a time?"

Awkward. Awkward. Awkward.

The worst is looking back on awkward situations. I can't think of the interview without cringing. And my parents keep asking about it. I'm praying that it wasn't as bad as I imagined or that Wendy's has really low standards, but I think I kind of blew it. Which brings me to me asking you guys for help once again?

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TEACH ME YOUR SECRETS! How is everybody on this site so charismatic and....generally non-awkward? How do you do it? I desperately want to be less awkward, so I actually have a chance of getting a job, and just for the sake of being less awkward. I feel like even here I'm a bit of an outsider.