Blog Entry: i wonder...

i wonder... Have you guys ever wondered if anything we do really matters? Like what if nothing we do here has any consequence after death? I know almost every religion has an afterlife of some sort but what if there really isn't anything?
Or what if there is an afterlife, but our judgement is based on totally different things than we thought? Like based on success or something instead of our deeds.
idk why I'm thinking of this now. Maybe because I recently watched Black Butler and Ciel is kind like that.
He takes what he wants and does whatever it takes to win the 'game'. Which is what he has dubbed life. Very seldom does her show any real emotion besides boredom or anger. I don't know why but that way of thinking, doing whatever it takes to get what you truly want.... It appeals to me. I don't know why though.
Oh well, I can't do that even if I wanted to so whatever. Although sometimes I feel like I could. Now I'm just rambling and I think I'll stop now. xDDD