Blog Entry: I wish I could remember how to breathe...

I wish I could remember how to breathe... So to catch you up, I've sort of got it bad for one of my friends... Have for a few months. The other day I lost another friend to a blood clot, and that made me realize just how short life could be, considering she was only 18. Anyway... I told her. In a facebook message, but only because that's the only communication I have with her. And I sent it yesterday morning, but she doesn't get online much. Anyway, I was on today and she started posting stuff to people's walls and she poked me and yet- no response. I can't breathe. I'm shaking. And close to tears. I told her that I completely understood, even if it tears me in two, if she didn't want to talk to me anymore. Somebody- please- remind me how to breathe.