Blog Entry: Bi or Gay?

Bi or Gay? So, I've been in this relationship with this guy for a week now, but I don't think it's working out. And, I think it's because I'm gay. We've been... doing stuff. A lot of stuff. More than is normal for having been dating for a week, but it hasn't been making me uncomfortable or anything. But I think that might be because I'm gay and haven't been feeling much of anything. Yeah, I got turned on, but I didn't feel anything. I didn't enjoy it. I didn't like it. I just wanted to be somewhere else. God, I didn't want this to be a relationship that lasts for a week and then fizzles out. I want to be in a relationship with a girl. Not a guy. Any guy. Guys are hot, sure, but I just don't think that I'm attracted to them like I thought I was.
So, I'm going to talk to my friend about this, if she ever answers my messages. And my other friend, tomorrow, not that she'd know much about this, since she's straight, and kind of a heart breaker. But, I think, until I talk to my friends, I'm going to break up with my boyfriend, that's my decision for now. I don't know, though. I'm so confused. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't want him to hate, since we're really good friends, I just don't feel anything for him. I don't want him to think something horrible about me. I don't know if he will, he was fine when I told him I was bi, but if I'm gay... God, this is hard. Why is this so hard?