Blog Entry: The Lie "Im Fine"

The Lie "Im Fine" We have all said those two words to someone at one point or another when they ask us "What's wrong?"
They are probably the biggest lie that has ever been told, because when someone says it, 90% of the time they are not fine.

I take myself for example... There is always someone asking me if I am OK. Or what's wrong. I always tell them I'm fine. If someone apologizes to me and I say "It's fine" it normally means, it still hurts or I am still disappointed.
Some people say it so they do not burden their friends or family with what ever is actually wrong with them. Other people say it because they do not want to open themselves up to who ever asked. While others just want to hide the fact that they are upset so they can either try to take care of the situation themselves or be strong. I would be the second one, because I really do have major issues about opening up to people. There are some people I can open up to immediately, but that would only be because they are friends with one of my friends. So if my friend trusts them, so will I.
Even today I have problems opening up to some of my closest friends. When they ask me "what's wrong" I either shake my head, or I look at them and say "nothing". But I have one friend in particular, that knows better. When he asks me what's wrong, and I do not tell him, and instead try to hide it. He pries it out of me. There are days when I am so thankful to have a friend that will listen to me, while other times I wish he would just leave it alone and not worry about it. But I know he only does it because he cares about me, and he wants me to be happy.

We should not have to hide ourselves from people. That is what causes all the suicides in the world, because no one knows how someone feels because that person hides it, or they say "I'm fine" and no one questions it. Then the emotions just build up and build up, and we are human, so eventually those emotions are going explode. They will all come out in one big rush, and it can make us do stupid things.
I STILL have scars on my legs from when I started cutting 2 years ago. I have not cut in 2 years. But the scars are still there. Will they ever go away? Probably not. If I could take back what I did to myself, would I? Absolutely without a doubt, i would. I hate living with the constant reminder of what I did, just because I let my emotions build up.

So if you are going through something rough. Talk to someone! Talk to a friend, parent, teacher, couselor. Who ever! Just talk to somebody. Go to your best friend and say "Hey, I need someone to talk to." Odds are, they will be there for you, and help you through it. I've seen a lot of blogs and forums about people talking about cutting and suicide. And it needs to stop because neither of those are the answer. All they do is hurt more people. So if someone asks you "what's wrong?", if something really is wrong, TELL THEM! Do not hide it from them.