Blog Entry: i cant stop crying

i cant stop crying i just cant stop crying. i jus found out one of my friends tried to kill herself. she was absolutley amazin and gorgeous and she was the sweetest person on the planet. ive been cryin for the past hour...my bestfriend was on the phone wit her while she was drinkin the bleach and takin the ibprofen. she was begging her to stop and she was the one that called 911. my bestfriend calls me and tells me this. and i jus lost it. i broke down crying.. looks like i wont be sleeping for awhile.cuz everytime i close my eyes i jus cant stop think about her.

and now my bestfriend taylor is over at my house and we are both cryin and taylor is talkin bout killin herself too. as if today cud get any worse. i promised her that if she killed herself i wud too. if it wasnt for taylor i wudnt be alive today. she has saved me from suicide so many times