Blog Entry: Opening Up To Friends and Labelling

Opening Up To Friends and Labelling Well. I opened up to a friend today. As she opened up to me.

Turns out we're pretty much the same person behind the bitchyness, the crazy and the anger.

We're both screaming on the inside, pretty much hating ourselves and holding back the tears day by day.
Talking about it to her literally reminded me how shitty life is. I pretty much broke down in French class.

Then, after school, I went to a group chat room with my friend to meet her boyfriend (Don't ask.) and guess what she introduced me as? Taylor. And then asked me if I could tell him "the truth". And by that she meant that I'm not biologically male.
What did she end up telling him?
"Taylor is actually a girl and she is my bff from school and she's a lesbian and she's transgender."

Every time I she used the wrong pronouns was literally like a punch in the face.
I thought she UNDERSTOOD or at least would use the correct pronouns since I came out to her roughly 1-2 months ago and have explained it several times to her. :/

Seriously.
I then explained AGAIN that I'm FtM and she was like "You're a lesbian right?". My response? "Firstly, I'm a guy. SO HOW THE HELL CAN I BE A LESBIAN?!"
"I'm confused." was her response. I'm a guy in a girls body. That isn't confusing at all.

What would be confusing would be... Uh... Being a catfish that secretly turns into a dog at night. That would be confusing.

So glad Animal Crossing arrived today. I'm gonna lock myself away in my new town, Berries, for a few hours. It'll cheer me up. I'm bringing my DS to school tomorrow just to escape to Berries when I need to.

Gyeh.