Blog Entry: Hm.

Hm. I've just felt so shit lately. I don't know why, things aren't bad at home or at school.
I just have no interest in anything any more, I've had a constant headache for almost a week now.
I feel like forcing a smile is a chore now.
Like today was just really shitty, I got all upset over nothing and everyone I've tried talking too is ignoring me and that just makes me feel alone and sad and stupid.
The other night all I could think about is how I wanted to die and I was able to just sleep it off and i tried to do the same yesterday and it just didnt work and now I just feel even worse and stupid and I dont know how to deal with this, I was doing so well, almost 2 months clean and I just caved and now I feel like I have nothing left, like I could die and no one would care, like if I dont even care about me, why should others. I don't know. I feel totally worthless.
I guess eventually things will look up, I'm trying to keep my head up and just keep thinking about how my life could get better and be better in let's say a year from now.
I told my mom about it and she's going to help me get my medication changed to see if that'll do something.
I hope so, I really hate feeling like this.