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Do You Share the same fear? I have had many dreams that have all shared a similar basis:

Im search in the dark for something I can't find when I hear a child call out "mommy"
I search and search for this child and after what seems like years and then a child steps out from the darkness and reaches out for me
He was a beautiful little boy with brown skin and dark curly hair.
I held him in my arms and felt as if he was my child -all I ever searched for in life
Be something was pulling him away into the darkness his arms reached for me and the last thing I saw was his little hand.
I couldn't grasp him and my heart broke.

I feel as if this is really showing me I'm meant to adopt, that there's a child born to another that's meant for me.
the dream I believe is also the fear of society not letting me be a mother...

Have you ever felt this way?
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posted by crashley on Monday 23 April 2012 at 3:24AM

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Yup Emoticon: Smile :) I already told you my story but I think you're right about it.
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  Post: #642323 Link to this post, Mon 23 Apr 12, 3:28AM
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Its something that really scares me
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  Post: #642324 Link to this post, Mon 23 Apr 12, 3:30AM
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Yeah it freaks me out too. I want at least one kid too.
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  Post: #642326 Link to this post, Mon 23 Apr 12, 3:33AM
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I feel like its the main thing in working towards, like its part of my life meaning
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  Post: #642328 Link to this post, Mon 23 Apr 12, 3:36AM
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To have the little kid you mean?
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Yes
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I want a little boy too Emoticon: Smile :). My little River Emoticon: Smile :).
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That's a beautiful name Emoticon: Smile :)
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I watch baby name videos because I'm weird like that. One of the names that anastasiaruby suggested was River. And I fell in love with it right there Emoticon: Smile :).
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Its not weird
I watch alot of baby documentaries lol Emoticon: Smile :)
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wow thats a pretty amazing dream altho pretty sad. i have same fear. i fear that when i have children they will have to deal with the homophobia. ik its not my fault but it just like i wonder if they'll ever wish for straight parents. but ik i wanna adopt and will love them with all my heart.
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If you love them with all your heart and teach them the right was they will love you no matter what Emoticon: Smile :)
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That's an incredible dream. It sounds like you would make a good mom. I want to adopt too. And I'm gonna find a way no matter what.
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I hope it works out for all of us
I've looked into the adoption process here in the US and it seems very difficult :/
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I'm with you on the adoption part, Ash. Glad to see you on QA~
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I'm going to Australia where it will be much easier Emoticon: Smile :) plus I absolutely love Australia for other reasons.
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Thanks Irene Emoticon: Smile :)
Yeah I'm thinking of going to another country also
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  Post: #642837 Link to this post, Tue 24 Apr 12, 4:23AM
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Haha, no prob. Be sure to keep in contact with me whenever you leave, Ash. Not kidding. Good luck in whatever you do =)
  Post: #643079 Link to this post, Wed 25 Apr 12, 1:38AM
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