Blog Entry: Do you ever?

Do you ever? Do you ever feel like you're going to explode?

Do you ever just want to scream until you have no voice left?

Do you ever want to cry, but can't bring the tears?

If you have, you'll understand.

It sucks.

And no amount of happy music or cute videos or hugs can help it.

So you have to wait it out, until it's gone.

But what if it never does?

What if you live in pain every second of your life, in sleep and in consciousness?

What if you don't know how you're supposed to get through it all, and everyone thinks you're doing well because you can't bring yourself to tell them you really, really aren't?

What if you live like this forever?

It is during moments like that, the pressure building up inside me, where I don't understand the point in living. But I have to. For everyone else. Because I'm a people-pleaser. Always have been.

Always will.