Blog Entry: Lay Off...

Lay Off... Sometimes, life sucks.

So, today my dad found out that he was laid off. Three years ago, the same thing happened. It took him two years to find a new job.
My mom doesn't have a job.
My stepmom doesn't make very much money.
Yeah, my life is fantastic. (*note sarcasm*)

A couple days ago, before this happened, my mom said we would probably have a one-present-for-each-person Christmas. Usually (we live in the bottom part of my grandpa's duplex) during Christmastime, my grandpa lets us not pay rent so we have extra holiday money. Well this year, she said we'd probably have to use that money for food, and living.
That was before this.
So now... Christmas may be nonexistent. Not that it really matters. But we're already poor. I mean, come on. So why did he have to get laid off? Why? I seriously want to burst out into tears and then scream at someone.

The thing is, I was looking forward to possibly asking out the girl I like tomorrow... now that seems so unimportant that I can't even stand it. I've fallen hard for this girl, but honestly, I don't know if I'll really feel it again until I see her... because right now I just feel like curling up in a ball and dying.
I hate this.
I hate this stupid fucking economy.
I want to move to London and go to college there and become the Doctor's companion on Doctor Who.
I don't want to sit here in poverty and never get anywhere close to my dream of becoming a performer.
The thing is, if I actually made it big, I'd get tons of money. And we're the kind of family that needs it. But there is no way I can get anywhere, not in Washington State. This isn't exactly the performing capital of the US. And now without money, it's hard for me to get better at guitar or singing... ugh.

I guess this is a rant post...
But I just wanted someone to know how shitty my life is getting.