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rants about friendsby livelovelaugh (all) Thu 8 May 08, 11:39PM 1 responsesThere are a scarce amount of people at my school who i can stand to hang out with... My biggest pet peeve, is when friends pick favorites, or just use you to keep themselves occupied. I have this friend, 'H'... And she came up to be the other day all upset so i asked her what was wrong. She was a...

my declaration of independence!by livelovelaugh (all) Tue 6 May 08, 4:32AM 1 responsesWell, i have officially decided im better off alone. I have come to realize that i dont need friends. (im not saying this in a negative way). I have tried and tried, to met people i feel comfortable around, and to find real people, who wont turn there backs on me, and i haven't. No more looking, i...

mindless babble by livelovelaugh (all) Thu 1 May 08, 12:10PM 3 responsesm'kay guys. today im going to shadow at my (possible) next school... im kinda nervious. cause this is the school i plan on going to, and coming out at. what if this school is the same as my old school? i know i shouldnt worry about that now, but i tend to get my hopes up for stuff like this, and it...

Im sick of being the loner....by livelovelaugh (all) Sun 27 Apr 08, 8:35PM 12 responsesIm just saying this ahead of time, i dont mean anything offensive at what i say. I am just venting... I am angry. Every single gay person i met is a complete burn out. They are on drugs, they are all in black, they drink, they are... different. I can respect that. But GOD DAMN IT!!!! Why cant i f...

where is kay?by livelovelaugh (all) Thu 24 Apr 08, 3:05AM 5 responsesi know, i know, 2nd time this exact topic has come up but.... cant ignor it anymore, kay (babygirl69) hasnt been online for about a month. i dont know where she went, and im starting to worry. it isnt like her to be gone this long.... does anyone know where she is?...

Happy happy happy!!!!by livelovelaugh (all) Sun 20 Apr 08, 3:23AM 15 responsesIm am soooooo happy!!!! I haven't been happy in a long time!!! Im just sooooo excited!!! Today in the car my dad asked me how i was doing in school... I reply, "im a straight C student" He got upset. "What can i do noelle? what do you need?" "I dont feel motivated, i hate my highschool. peopl...

light at the end of the tunnel?.....by livelovelaugh (all) Thu 10 Apr 08, 2:46AM 2 responsesIm sorta sick of all the people at my school... all of um. and i havent been on QA much either. I've been rather, feelingless lately. i dont care about people, school, can't even say i care much for QA anymore. (sorry guys) im not sure what to care about anymore. i guess i just give up on caring. b...

Realizing how pathetic i am...by livelovelaugh (all) Fri 4 Apr 08, 3:17AM 4 responsessooooo.... just realized i am a "grand elder" now. and i joined QA only about 3 months ago.... its offical, im socially impaired. i have more of a life on the computer then at school or anywhere else. cause this is basically the only place i can go at the moment. i secretally hate all of my "friends...

Press Play!... Lets move on.by livelovelaugh (all) Fri 4 Apr 08, 12:06AM 2 responsesLately I have been in this strange trance. Not feeling really awake as i go through my day.... And the only time i really feel awake and alive is when I pull out a pen and a piece of paper and write. So I have been writting this story... This story, I just realized, is a story about how I want my li...

life long questions.... another poemby livelovelaugh (all) Fri 28 Mar 08, 5:02AM 1 responsesI know everything didn't rhyme prefectly, but i dont think poetry is about prefection... so here it goes.... LIFE LONG QUESTIONS.... This life i live is not complete Where is that missing puzzle peice? I can't seem to fill the empty spaces There seem to be so many unseen places What do...

Not coming back.by livelovelaugh (all) Thu 27 Mar 08, 8:55PM 2 responsesI can't get this outta my head. That one bad thought that haunts me everyday and everynight. I try so hard to block it out, i try so hard to forget everything, but i can't. It has been over 2 weeks sinse it happened.... And i still can't even say it out loud to you guys, cause im in such denial that...

The fog.by livelovelaugh (all) Thu 27 Mar 08, 3:40PM 6 responsesI big gray fog has slowly settled around the small foothills that surrounds my house. This morning I decided to sit at my window sill and watch the fog. I don't know why....Usually I don't like weather that grays and dampens the sky... It usually makes me depressed. But today the fog is different. I...

A Poem.by livelovelaugh (all) Wed 26 Mar 08, 10:45PM 7 responsesI can see you there, in my mind In my dreams Yet it is you, i can not find You seem so close, but yet so far You're on my mind Everyday you're gone, deepens the scar You could be there, in front of me But I am blind So there I cry, Where is she? Are you looking for me? Or am I alone? ...

set me freeby livelovelaugh (all) Sun 16 Mar 08, 3:03AM 4 responsesi know i just posted a blog a few minutes ago, but i need to write.... Is every breath i take a mistake? Am i ment to be here? It seems doubtful. So unecessary. So un-needed So why bother? Should i take my last breath? I am no longer breathing for myself. So who am i breathing for? No one...

left behindby livelovelaugh (all) Sun 16 Mar 08, 2:51AM 1 responsesIm broken inside Without you What you did to me Was beyond my control Come back Lift me up again Make me smile Give me what i crave Hold me, love me Why leave me? How could it happen? Why did it happen? I am doomed to a loveless life. Good. I don't need anyone else. I only needed you....

my day todayby livelovelaugh (all) Thu 13 Mar 08, 8:57PM 4 responsesits official i hate my friend lia. she is a bitch. and im so done with her. she is a homophobe. i cant tell her im gay cause she would spread the rumor cause she hates gay people. she is clingy, mean, and she hurts me!!!! i have tired to get rid of her as a friend, she cant take a hint. today at lu...

the treeby livelovelaugh (all) Wed 12 Mar 08, 11:20PM 1 responsesi dont remember what happened all day today. i didnt know who was talking to me, i didnt know where i was going. i just went on auto pilot all day. i do remember, however, stairing out the window all of 7th period today. i just staired at a tree gently swaying in the breeze. i dont know why i staire...

i need to get away.by livelovelaugh (all) Wed 12 Mar 08, 2:05AM 3 responsesi feel fucked up. so many confusing emotions mixing in my head, so much saddness and anger. i fight them all and keep them inside. i dont let them out, i know i should, but crying feels like being weak. i feel numb, sad, angry, confused all at the same time. im so tired. im so sick of this internal ...

why is she gone?by livelovelaugh (all) Tue 11 Mar 08, 1:41AM 6 responsesim lost. i dont know what to do. i want to die!!!!!!! how could she die? i dont know what to do. why did this have to happen? why cant she come back? it feels like someone took a fork and twisted it into my heart. why is she gone!!!!???? why? ...

she is goneby livelovelaugh (all) Tue 11 Mar 08, 1:29AM 0 responsesyou were my world you were my love you were my everything and now, your gone. YOUR FUCKING GONE!!!! everything we had everything we had done... lost you will never come back you will never be here i will never talk to you again i loved you! so much. now i cant ever see you again. FUCK THE ...

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