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< Previous | Pages: 1 2 3 4 | Next >  Forensics! (not like CSI)by JosiePosie (all) Mon 5 May 08, 1:29AM 2 responsesHey, got back from the state forensics competition last night! It was pretty fun. I got 16th in the state...it doesn't really sound that good, but when you consider a lot of kids wanted to go to states and didn't even get to, it's good. I think it's an honor just to be able to get to states.
Yeah... Good bye...by JosiePosie (all) Thu 1 May 08, 8:43PM 6 responsesHey guys, I've got the state forensic competition this weekend, so I wont be on later tonight or until Sunday. I'll miss you crazy kids. : ] Wish me luck, though! I'll let everyone know how it goes!
Love you! ... who the **** needs a title?by JosiePosie (all) Mon 14 Apr 08, 9:19PM 0 responsesI can't do this anymore.
I can't take the constant pain every fucking day.
They want me to talk.
And I want to talk to them.
I want to tell someone, anyone...everything.
But I can't talk.
I literally can't.
I try, and I...I get scared.
I panic.
I yell, I cry, I lie.
Or I say nothing and ... The Boy Who Was Always Lonelyby JosiePosie (all) Thu 10 Apr 08, 11:42PM 1 responsesI don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.
I feel like I'm having panic attacks everytime I'm around people.
It's been like this for a while, but it keeps getting worse...
I can't stand it when people talk to me. I want them to leave me alone. I freak out when (most) people try to hug me.... Wishing...by JosiePosie (all) Sat 5 Apr 08, 2:56PM 4 responses
I wish you could
Reconsider
Me
I wish I could
Silence
The flame growing
Inside of me
I wish the flame
Would
Never burn you
I wish your tears
Never
Bloomed
I wish there could
Be
An Us
Instead of
You
and Me
I wish these things
Never
Ached inside
I wish we could
Live
Our lives... Anonymous Thoughtsby JosiePosie (all) Thu 3 Apr 08, 10:23PM 2 responses
Beautiful girl,
What do you mean to me?
In ten years
What will we be?
Will you be my fairytale
The girl of my dreams?
My dreams only
And nothing more?
Will you be the one
I never really knew?
The girl I thought I loved
But never could confirm?
Will we meet sometime far off
Perhaps the... Sometimes...by JosiePosie (all) Tue 1 Apr 08, 2:33AM 7 responses...I just really hate myself.
And it doesn't matter what happens or what anyone says about me.
Sometimes I just feel like I'm shit and that's all I'll ever be.... Happy birthday to me...by JosiePosie (all) Fri 28 Mar 08, 3:58PM 12 responsesokay, maybe forget about that happy part.
Why do my birthdays always suck?
Why am I always thrown under the bus?
Why am I ALWAYS second important to EVERYTHING?
Fuck it.
No more parties.
Next year?
Just gonna be me and Bri. Joyriding and getting Take-out and Hot Topic spreeing.
Wh... Going Insane.by JosiePosie (all) Mon 10 Mar 08, 1:04AM 13 responsesIt sucks. It sucks so much every damn day, and no one even seems to get it. I can't even explain what's going on with me right now.
It's too much stress. Too many lies. It builds up more and more, I'm a time-bomb. Say the wrong word to me, and it sets me off. Screaming, yelling, swearing, crying, s... Where Am I [for now]by JosiePosie (all) Sat 8 Mar 08, 4:20AM 5 responsesWhat kind of a guy am I?
I'm a hippy.
I'm laid back.
I'm independent.
I'm a little fem-ish sometimes.
I like competetion.
I'm intelligent.
I like a challenge.
I'm a nerd.
I'm a dork.
I'm a geek.
I'm a dinosaur fanatic.
I'm a poet.
I'm a writer.
I like reading.
I love science.
I lov... My Losing Battleby JosiePosie (all) Sun 17 Feb 08, 6:53PM 2 responsesThis is a war
I have alreaday lost
But I still
Find worth in the battle
A struggle
In words I call myself
To no one
But the voice within
My mind
They hate me
And they don't even
Know it
My own friends
Mock me and
Open these scars
Again and again with
Sharp, misdirected words
They ju... Forensics! <3by JosiePosie (all) Mon 11 Feb 08, 12:32AM 17 responsesWow guys. The first tournament was an AMAZING experience. I cannot wait until I go to the next tournament!!! I offically LOVE forenisics and forensicators!
Here's my scores from the day:
Round 1:
3 98
Round 2:
3 98
Round 3:
3 98
Semi Finals:
1 100
4 96
[For those of yo... Guy Confusion?by JosiePosie (all) Sun 27 Jan 08, 4:42PM 4 responsesSo, as a few of you know...
I sortive have feelings for a guy.
It's just a little bit confusing.
Half of me says to just go with my intuition and just go with my feelings...
What's the point of trying to label my sexuality as black or white, anyways, when I know I'm just a shade of gray?
I li... Last Night.by JosiePosie (all) Sat 19 Jan 08, 5:58PM 1 responsesLast night, when I was laying in my bed with unimaginable cramps, feeling incredibley dehydrated, dizzy, nausous, and sick to my stomach, my mind felt strangley clear. It allowed me to think about a lot of things. Instead of whining about "why do I have to go through this girl shit when I'm a GUY", ... Monday? Was not good.by JosiePosie (all) Mon 14 Jan 08, 10:16PM 6 responsesRejection:
I should be used to this by now.
I understand her predicament...I understand why it's not going to work.
I understand it perfectly.
And yet...my heart, doesn't understand it at all.
My heart doesn't understand why this can't work if we both have feelings for each other. When I lo... Another for Miss. Stephanie.by JosiePosie (all) Sun 13 Jan 08, 5:14PM 4 responses
The snow is falling
Lightly to the ground
Beauty
It makes me think of you
Again I think
Of how I've fallen for you
How much I want
To be an us
One, together
Not two, apart
The snow is falling
And tomorrow is Monday
I wonder if you are
Falling too
Maybe tomorrow I'll find
My courage
... A Poem for Miss. Stephanyby JosiePosie (all) Thu 10 Jan 08, 12:36AM 5 responsesToday, I wrote this for, and gave this to, a girl that I like. ...dis poem is a poemby JosiePosie (all) Wed 9 Jan 08, 12:47AM 3 responsesMy heart takes
A fancy towards
People of beauty,
Despite
Whether this be wise, or
Whether it wants.
And so it is
No surprise
That I find it
Leaping and longing
With unglorious joy
As I dare to dance
A darting glance.
It is not a fallacy
Nor a flux that it
Stirs,
Nor that I find
My l...
 OCD?by JosiePosie (all) Fri 7 Dec 07, 10:50PM 0 responsesSo I felt like taking some random OCD screening tests today. Lots of fun. Looks promising. xP
Results of your
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder Screening
You scored a total of 28
Based upon your responses to this screening measure, you are most likely suffering from an obsessive-compulsive ... Single...by JosiePosie (all) Fri 7 Dec 07, 12:48AM 4 responsesJust when I thought it couldn't get any worse right now.
My girlfriend broke up with me last night.
Surprise!
Why?
She thinks she's going to end up hurting me.
It's quite involved and complicated.
And I promised I wouldn't tell anyone why she thinks that.
So I'm going to ...< Previous | Pages: 1 2 3 4 | Next >  |
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