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saturday nightby Angel06 (all) Tue 9 Feb 10, 12:03AM 0 responsesSoo this past saturday i went to my first real party and got totally trahsed...shitfaced does not describe how much i drank. We started out with shots of tequila and went from there. I also teamed up with a friend and played beer pong, we totally lost. Anyways we were all having fun and games and i...

i wonderby Angel06 (all) Sun 31 Jan 10, 6:52AM 0 responsesI wonder if i can really restart all of this. i wonder if getting out into crowds and back into the social scene is worth it. im tired of getting stuck in the friend zone and am currently transitioning from being friendly with girls to on an all out attack on the walls of the friend zone. damn the t...

About my absence.by Angel06 (all) Sun 24 Jan 10, 6:30AM 0 responsesA friend and I had a falling out. We are both members of QA but they were here first. I asked if they wanted me to leave and i said i would but this place has become a home to me and a place of knowledge and growth. SO instead of leaving alltogether I will just rarely post and not be on here as acti...

its not you.by Angel06 (all) Sat 16 Jan 10, 2:38AM 0 responsesits not you its me. the fact that i hurt you hurts me so much its hard to see you or be near you because of what i did. i havent been avoiding you ive been actually doing things. like i had class and such. i know you dont care but its not you its me. ...

wowby Angel06 (all) Sat 9 Jan 10, 11:20PM 2 responsesso this is me your favorite me the depressing always stressing always messing up lives me Break me down to pieces Put me back, do it right this time Struggling to fill this empty shell Burn my efforts in the end it means(Nothing) listening to in flames at the moment. I went to the army s...

winters tearsby Angel06 (all) Tue 29 Dec 09, 7:11PM 2 responsesi stand in the rain slowly waking up i feel the drops on my shaven head feel the cold breeze blow through my winter wear i feel cold water running down my neck. I am emotionless, still in this random chaos. i am the one without a soul. ...

tonightby Angel06 (all) Tue 29 Dec 09, 4:29AM 0 responsesso im sittin here about to goto bed. i was thinking about how all of this has worked out. I dont know if its in my favor or not, it probabl isnt. but this next semester is make or break for me. ive got a bad gpa and have to get it up to 3.0 to keep my scholorship. i just hope i can get the army scho...

avatar-esque romances.by Angel06 (all) Tue 22 Dec 09, 2:55AM 0 responsesi was watching AVATAR which is a kick butt movie. I was watching it and wondering why my life cant be like that and then i realized it always is. either never get the girl (like the one dude whos gonna be chieftan so i always see mine stolen away or already taken) or we do get together but then sh...

this is the only thing i can doby Angel06 (all) Thu 17 Dec 09, 2:03AM 0 responsesso yeah im blogging again..prolly make this a daily habit now. its the only thing i feel comfortable doing on this site anymore. I cant post on facebook eitherm cuz they would ban me cuz of my thoughts and stuff...plus theres people on there thatd tell my rents...yeah SO i actually have a job now...

idk wat title this is..whinybitch one?by Angel06 (all) Wed 16 Dec 09, 5:24AM 0 responsesI feel this hollow pain thats not there. I feel this emptyness that means you dont care. I feel all of this and wish i couldnt feel at all. These emotions are not rational, they are not me. Yet they express me in ways i have always wanted to. I dont hate you or this i just cant live this way all of ...

This Life..It dies.by Angel06 (all) Sat 12 Dec 09, 7:02AM 0 responsesI will give you a lesson in life about me as you hate me without rancor I see that you need A little background info on me. I was one of three in my batch, my mom was a whore who liked that there crack I was adhd and totally extreme out of 12 other children from 23 to 3 I was dropped off at 3 wi...

This Driveby Angel06 (all) Sun 6 Dec 09, 5:13AM 0 responsesThis drive is too fast too slow. I feel the need and the urgency but whats the rush. i take the turn to fas tand get everyone hurt. Why do i rush this why do i do these things. Life does not operate on my time table. My own words incriminate me, bind me to this spell of speed. i wish i could take it...

Not gonna make itby Angel06 (all) Sat 5 Dec 09, 9:54PM 14 responsesI fel like im not gonna make it through this school year. maybe it is just me but i feel apath3etic when it comes to my schoolwork. I was a computer science major but now im switching to a history major. I feel like im just alone even when i have people around me. I feel alone when i sit in my empty...

Sitting hereby Angel06 (all) Fri 4 Dec 09, 5:22PM 0 responsesIm sitting here waitin for english class, waiting to clash with my ex, whats next? This entire thing is just not me, i dont know who i want to be in this crazy world we're living in. I wish i could begin again and not giving in to self incrimination self damnation. is there any explanation for th...

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